Have Never Been Eloquent

Exodus 4:10-12
Moses said to the Lord, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant.  I am slow of speech and tongue."  The Lord said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute?  Who gives him sight or makes him blind?  Is it not I, the Lord?  Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."

      Thank goodness for that.  Coming from someone with a lisp who has been called to talk to people.  That makes me feel so much better.  I have all these ideas in my head, that when they come out on paper or from my mouth, they never sound right.  I thank Him that He will give me the words.  He will tell me what to say and when to say it. 

      I wonder how much better we would all be doing if we really sought His wisdom in situations where a good "talk" needs to be had.  I know in my past, present and ( I'm sure ) my future, there have been and will be times when I will say what ever comes to my head.  There seems to be an express route from thought to verbalization in my body.  However, I am trying to seek God first before I go and become a vocal waterfall of unnecessary opinion.  I'll pray for you, so please pray for me. 

Jesus is Jesus

Ephesians 4:1-7
      As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received.  Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.  Make ever effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.  There is one body and one Spirit- just as you were called to one hope when you were called- one Lord, one faith, one baptism; one God and Father of all.  But to EACH ONE OF US grace has been given as Christ apportioned it.

      I had to ask for forgiveness AGAIN.  I let myself get upset by the actions of someone else, and instead of praying and asking God to show me what to do, in my head (and heart), I took the exact action as the offender.  Have you ever done that?  I think I do it on a regular basis.  I was instantly upset and hurt at someone, and I mirrored the action.  Though silently, and to myself, I still did it.  When will we realize that Jesus is Jesus and He doesn't care how we worship Him, as long as we do.  There is no right or wrong way to do it.  There are no rules.  As long as we are worshipping only Him and it is from our heart, He doesn't care.  He just wants us.  All of us. 

      So I ask God and anyone who reads this to forgive me for falling short once again.  I pray right now that the unity in spirit and our churches will grow.  I pray that we can all put aside our differences and focus on the issues at hand, reaching the lost for Christ, and showing His love to everyone, not just the people who are like us. 

    

Provided

      We have all gone on trips, whether short or small.  I like the ones that have a brochure that tell me what is provided, however, most of my trips don't have that and we have to prepare.  Some make lists, some just pack everything so that they forget nothing, some wing it and get what they need when they get there.  I am a list maker.  At some point, before most long trips, you'll find a list with items crossed out and some not.  The ones crossed out are the things I have packed or decided not to pack.  The ones still visible are needed right up until departure day and are put in the bag as I use them to get ready to go. 

      It never fails though.  I get to my destination, and I have forgotten something, and I have to go get it.  Its ridiculous.  I was reminded by a friend today that we are to be anxious about nothing and we not to worry about anything we need. 

      Jesus states in Mathew 6:25, 33-34, Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear.  Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?...But seek first His righteousness, and all these tings will be given to you as well.  Therefore, do no worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own.

      Philippians 4:6  Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

      These words are a song to my heart.  They sing a melody.  Everything I NEED is PROVIDED.  He also wants us to present our prayers and requests to Him.  The things we want.  He still wants us to ask for them.  He knows best and may not give me what I want, but He has my back in all things.  I will never be without the things that I need.  It is sometimes difficult for me to remember this.  I'm working on it.

It is Well

      Have you ever had conversations with yourself?  I admit I do it all the time.  It sometimes goes like this,  If "this" happens, then I will say "this", and then I'll say "this" and this will happen, and then "this" will be the result, so then I'll say "this"... get the picture? 

      Here lately it has been like this all the time.  Telling myself to quit worrying and to trust God in all things then its immediately back to, "I need to try harder and if I do "this then maybe I can do that, blah blah blah.  Then I turn it into a discussion prayer with God like, " I do want Your will in my life.  I know it is better than anything I could ever want for myself, but You also said its okay to ask You for the desires of my heart."

      My question is, where is the fine line between being happy with what God has already provided, ( and I am thankful) and not feeling bad for asking for something else?  It has been like a tight rope game in my head for two weeks. 

      Just now a song came into my head, and though there is no sorrow in my life or heart right now, there is a place of unsettled ick that I just can't describe.  So this is going to be my prayer and my thanks and my praise until I can get through it.  Here are the words.  Maybe some of you know the song.

      When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
      When sorrows like sea billows roll;
      Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
      It is well, It is well with my soul

      And Lord, haste the day, when my faith shall be sight,
      The clouds be rolled back as a scroll,
      The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
      Even so, it is well with my soul

Have a blessed week.

Can I Wait?

      Do any of you have trouble waiting?  I'm just going to tell you I do and get it out there.  I am not good at it.  If there is something I want, I am so impatient.  Sometimes I pray and think I receive an answer and I run with it, only to find out that is is something that "I" wanted to be the answer but it isn't.  Right now is one of those times.  I have been praying for a certain thing in my life to take off, thinking that if I just had more time away from work, I could really make a go at it.  I have been praying that something would come along that I could make the same amount or more and not be in the work place as much.  There are several people around me that have jumped into this "thing", and it is going great for them.  I admit it, I am quickly losing my patience.  I am asking anyone who may read this to pray with me and for me that I can bow to Him and "wait".  I need to wait.  I think the answer may be in the waiting. 

      If any of you need me to pray for you, please let me know.  I will be happy to do it.  Isaiah 40:31...but they that wait for Jehovah shall renew their strength: they shall mount up with wings like eagles: they shall run, and not be weary: they shall walk and not faint.  On this rock I am trying to stand.