It is Well

      Have you ever had conversations with yourself?  I admit I do it all the time.  It sometimes goes like this,  If "this" happens, then I will say "this", and then I'll say "this" and this will happen, and then "this" will be the result, so then I'll say "this"... get the picture? 

      Here lately it has been like this all the time.  Telling myself to quit worrying and to trust God in all things then its immediately back to, "I need to try harder and if I do "this then maybe I can do that, blah blah blah.  Then I turn it into a discussion prayer with God like, " I do want Your will in my life.  I know it is better than anything I could ever want for myself, but You also said its okay to ask You for the desires of my heart."

      My question is, where is the fine line between being happy with what God has already provided, ( and I am thankful) and not feeling bad for asking for something else?  It has been like a tight rope game in my head for two weeks. 

      Just now a song came into my head, and though there is no sorrow in my life or heart right now, there is a place of unsettled ick that I just can't describe.  So this is going to be my prayer and my thanks and my praise until I can get through it.  Here are the words.  Maybe some of you know the song.

      When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
      When sorrows like sea billows roll;
      Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
      It is well, It is well with my soul

      And Lord, haste the day, when my faith shall be sight,
      The clouds be rolled back as a scroll,
      The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
      Even so, it is well with my soul

Have a blessed week.